Damn it all, I knew it was going too well...

[graculus]

So, I may be about to quit my job.

The re-education, that seemed to be going well, has hit a bit of a snag. My boss is probably capering about as we speak, having had feedback about something that backs up her view that I am A Problem That Must Be Fixed. My tolerance for all this shit wasn't great in the first place and so I appear to be rapidly heading towards either redeployment or quitting (watch this space, we're formally meeting two weeks today!) and I've never been convinced that this wasn't all just a long and drawn-out way of getting shot of me anyway...

Frankly, I'm tired of being upset and stressed all the time, which has been a significant aspect of my life since I got this job and only got worse this year when the system for how our work is handled got ruined updated. I've been in tears more this year than the rest of my life put together and most of it is due, directly or indirectly, to my current boss. She was all 'oh, but you have so many positive qualities' when also kicking me in the head yesterday, so we'll see if there are other options in-house or whether (as I suspect) my card was marked a while back.

Life's too short for me to put up with this shit. Frankly, I should have quit in the summer when I was moments away from telling her to shove the job up her arse sideways...

Comments

[emony.livejournal.com]

I'm amazed you've had the strength to put up with it for as long as you have, tbh. It sounds like they've made the situation completely untenable. As long as you can get someone other than your dreadful boss to give you a reference in future, and as long as you can keep yourself financially stable for a bit, if necessary, while you are looking for something else, I'd get out of there ASAP. But then again, I am a big fan of quitting jobs, and have been unemployed for almost six months now because I quit my last job when I decided that I hated my boss, so my advice is not exactly unbiased. Whatever you decide, good luck. You'll know what's the right thing to do, because once a decision is made, a weight will be lifted from your shoulders.

[louiselux.livejournal.com]

Oh, that sounds a completely demoralising situation! Plus your boss sounds shitty. It's a very hard decision to quit a job but it sounds like the right one for you at this point. It is easy to say rather than do, I know, but if it's making you this unhappy you should leave.

[przed.livejournal.com]

This has all sounded utterly horrendous, and definitely something you should be getting away from. It's horrid that your boss has treated you this way, but a job that makes you so stressed and unhappy is clearly not a good thing. I'll be sending you good thoughts, whatever goes down in the next two weeks.

[the4ts.livejournal.com]

Oh, damn :( I was hoping it would all work out for you. I'd go and go much sooner rather than later, if I were you, whilst you still had some sanity left. No job should make you feel like that. It just isn't worth it. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that you find something so much better really, really soon.

[rhade-rad.livejournal.com]

Wow. Sorry to hear it's got that bad. Have you got enough evidence for a 'constructive dismissal' claim against them/her?

Might also be worth exploring whether your GP will sign you off for the adverse effects stress is having on you. And use that as part of the negotiations for change.

Believe me I know how hard this sort of situation is. And how lucky I was to get out and be financially stable. If you need back up/ someone to talk to I'm around. (Email xcorby at gmail and I'll give you my numbers.)

[superbadgirl]

I feel certain you're in a field much easier to find a new position, so I say do it! I'm a little nervous out here jobless, but at the same time SO GLAD I don't work where I used to work. The reduction in stress and daily dealings with severe PITAs = worth it.

[captain-tiv.livejournal.com]

{{{hugs}}}

Life's too short to have to put up with any shit at work. Granted, we're there to do a job, we take their money and their orders, but that doesn't give them the right to make our lives hell.

[manna]

Dude, that's outrageous.

I can completely understand wanting to quit in such horrible circumstances, but do you have a union or, failing that, an HR department you can talk to about the situation? Because putting pressure on people to make them quit is wrong, and also illegal.

I hope the leave will reduce your stress and let you get a clearer idea for what you want to do next.

{hugs}

[siluria]

You have my respect for sticking it out as long as you have! My own experiences of public sector has left me with trust issues when it comes to co-workers, and despite me missing the flexi-time I don't think I can go back into it. Whatever you decide, make sure it's best for you and not them xxxxx

[khek.livejournal.com]

((hugs))

Wow. It sounds like it got seriously bad. Your boss is an ass. I think you're right though, it's time to leave. It doesn't sound like you're fighting against the tide, and no matter how hard you work, she's never going to give you the credit for it.

I hope that something wonderful comes up and that karma bites her in the butt. In the meantime though, good luck. And more (((Hugs)))