Damn it all, I knew it was going too well...

[graculus]

So, I may be about to quit my job.

The re-education, that seemed to be going well, has hit a bit of a snag. My boss is probably capering about as we speak, having had feedback about something that backs up her view that I am A Problem That Must Be Fixed. My tolerance for all this shit wasn't great in the first place and so I appear to be rapidly heading towards either redeployment or quitting (watch this space, we're formally meeting two weeks today!) and I've never been convinced that this wasn't all just a long and drawn-out way of getting shot of me anyway...

Frankly, I'm tired of being upset and stressed all the time, which has been a significant aspect of my life since I got this job and only got worse this year when the system for how our work is handled got ruined updated. I've been in tears more this year than the rest of my life put together and most of it is due, directly or indirectly, to my current boss. She was all 'oh, but you have so many positive qualities' when also kicking me in the head yesterday, so we'll see if there are other options in-house or whether (as I suspect) my card was marked a while back.

Life's too short for me to put up with this shit. Frankly, I should have quit in the summer when I was moments away from telling her to shove the job up her arse sideways...

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Found out the other day that the work coming in the front door has gone up about 85% since our new system was put in place, with (of course) no increase in resources to deal with it. I've been very much in 'survival mode' and that has affected everything I've done since then, my mood included.

Unfortunately, while my boss has been able to turn a blind eye to my impending breakdown, she's not done anything stupid enough that I can point it out with any degree of ease, it's been more like a steady chipping away at my confidence in dealing with anything. As for HR, they can barely cope with the concept of dealing with job applications, so I have no hope of support there. My boss may be crap at many things but she's significantly better at looking like she's toeing the line than I am, that's for certain.

Anyway, thanks for the support, good to see you're still around as I was wondering... ;)