Damn it all, I knew it was going too well...

[graculus]

So, I may be about to quit my job.

The re-education, that seemed to be going well, has hit a bit of a snag. My boss is probably capering about as we speak, having had feedback about something that backs up her view that I am A Problem That Must Be Fixed. My tolerance for all this shit wasn't great in the first place and so I appear to be rapidly heading towards either redeployment or quitting (watch this space, we're formally meeting two weeks today!) and I've never been convinced that this wasn't all just a long and drawn-out way of getting shot of me anyway...

Frankly, I'm tired of being upset and stressed all the time, which has been a significant aspect of my life since I got this job and only got worse this year when the system for how our work is handled got ruined updated. I've been in tears more this year than the rest of my life put together and most of it is due, directly or indirectly, to my current boss. She was all 'oh, but you have so many positive qualities' when also kicking me in the head yesterday, so we'll see if there are other options in-house or whether (as I suspect) my card was marked a while back.

Life's too short for me to put up with this shit. Frankly, I should have quit in the summer when I was moments away from telling her to shove the job up her arse sideways...

Comments

[graculus.livejournal.com]

I keep thinking that I should have jumped ship earlier, but couldn't quite see just how bad it really was till it was too late to do so without more significant implications. At least I gave it a try, so they can't hold that against me as well and we'll see if one of the many vacancies I know there are has my name on it or whether they'd rather let someone with my experience go without a squawk?

[emony.livejournal.com]

If they would, it's their loss and your gain, as I'm sure you'll be able to pick and choose something better elsewhere. And if there is something in another team or department where you are already, you can weigh up whether you want to stay there or whether a new boss and/or new team won't solve endemic problems within the organisation.

In any case, good luck. I hope it works out for the best, and as soon as possible.

[graculus.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the good wishes, they're much appreciated. In a lot of ways I am quite lucky that I'm financially okay for a bit and have no dependents, so we'll see how much they really do value my 'positive qualities' and work from there...